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In the momentary lull before the band begins to play
CHARACTERS: Jack Harkness, Ianto Jones, and Luthien
LOCATION: Space Bar & elsewhere
WARNINGS: flirting, couple fighting, & Jack Harkness
SUMMARY: Ianto has planned a special dinner for him and Jack. Too bad Jack unthinkingly blows him off to hit up the space bar with a very beautiful someone else. And is promptly found out.
NOTES: Two threads! One for Jack & Luthien at the space bar, the other for Jack & Ianto after he is in Trouble.
So maybe Jack should have checked with Ianto before he invited Luthien to a drink or two with him at the bar. Maybe he should have connected the dots when Ianto had asked him when he would be off of his Security duties. What was it they said about hindsight being 20-20? They should include another whole separate clause about what happens when Jack Harkness gets thrown into the mix, as far as relationships go. He should have known that things had been going too well for him lately.
LOCATION: Space Bar & elsewhere
WARNINGS: flirting, couple fighting, & Jack Harkness
SUMMARY: Ianto has planned a special dinner for him and Jack. Too bad Jack unthinkingly blows him off to hit up the space bar with a very beautiful someone else. And is promptly found out.
NOTES: Two threads! One for Jack & Luthien at the space bar, the other for Jack & Ianto after he is in Trouble.
So maybe Jack should have checked with Ianto before he invited Luthien to a drink or two with him at the bar. Maybe he should have connected the dots when Ianto had asked him when he would be off of his Security duties. What was it they said about hindsight being 20-20? They should include another whole separate clause about what happens when Jack Harkness gets thrown into the mix, as far as relationships go. He should have known that things had been going too well for him lately.
Jack & Luthien
He sweeps over to her with his usual matinee idol smile, all white teeth and blue eyes. "Fancy meeting you here," he says, bending his head in greeting and respect as he does.
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She turns though, flashing a smile of her own and dipping her head as well. At least it's a friendly face. Jack was pleasant enough when they'd met, despite both having had nothing more than towels around them.
"Fancy indeed~"
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"You clean up well, Princess," he comments, approvingly.
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"I should hope that I do. Especially now that my dresses are dry and no longer smell of the sea." Or what she thinks the sea smells like. Doesn't help that she's never been there but her fathers stories gave her an idea.
"I am glad that I can see you dressed, this time."
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"Hopefully you approve. I'll have you know, some people have told me I look incredibly handsome like this." They've never really accused him of being modest, however. "And I'm pretty sure if he'd be upset with me if I had to strip it all off to meet your approval, princess or not."
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"I think there would be many who would say something about that." Some good and some bad, though her thoughts don't go so far. She can at least agree that he does look handsome. That much she can appreciate without being embarrassed.
"I promise you, your being clothed is enough already." Part of her rushing each jump is to avoid those kinds of situations as well as avoiding certain people.
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"Lead the way?"
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Ianto checks the time again. He'd been sure to ask specifically if Jack was getting off his shift at the usual time. He knows he can't have gotten it wrong, which means that something must have gone sour on Jack's end. Gut churning unpleasantly with more than hunger, he shoves everything into the fridge for later before going off in search of his errant lover. His thoughts are of manticores and black holes. Not once does he entertain the idea that he's been blown off.
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Jack is, instead, chatting up a very beautiful woman over a tumbler of whiskey at the space bar, and really honestly enjoying himself. Not that he wouldn't be with Ianto. He loves any and all time with Ianto. Hell, it isn't even like he's particularly hiding what he's doing from the other man right now. It honestly slipped his mind to check in. He hadn't known that he would be missing anything. Hadn't thought it would matter. How little did he know. Jack Harkness is really bad at this relationship thing, after all. It's a wonder he's gotten this far so smoothly without disappointing the other man in some way or another.
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It doesn't occur to him that Jack may have just forgotten about him until Ianto steps through the door. Lo and behold, there is his errant lover with a drink in hand and a stunning, ethereal elf woman at his side. The world shifts. Ianto is paralyzed for a long moment, unable to move or speak, blood rushing to his ears until all he can hear is his own heartbeat.
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He excuses himself to Luthien and stands, waving Ianto over with a smile. Someone is oblivious as to the situation brewing in front of him, and his name would be Captain Jack Harkness.
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Strangling the words that want to rip from his throat, he looks viciously at Jack's beaming face before turning and stalking back out into the hallway. He'll be damned if he makes a public scene like some jilted teenager. Jack bloody Harkness can enjoy his sodding date.
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"Ianto? Hold on a minute. Ianto, wait!" He manages to catch up with him just outside the space bar, reaching to grab his arm and keep him from running away any further. He's only just a little out of breath and looking very confused, and he really honestly doesn't understand that look Ianto gave him, or is still giving him for that matter. "Ianto?"
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"I waited for you an hour before I went looking. A whole sodding hour while dinner went cold and I started to think you must have been killed on your way back. I looked everywhere, and I didn't even bloody well think to call you or text you because surely, surely if you were in any position to use your communicator, you'd have done it first, yeah? You'd have called me and told me there was an emergency, or you were running late, except there wasn't any emergency, was there? No, instead I find you in the pub, on a date with some elvish tart! And you've been here the whole time, haven't you? Laughing it up while I wait around and worry!"
He's in Jack's face now, eyes welling up, unable to separate pain from anger. "You want to know what the worst thing is, though? The worst thing is, you didn't even think enough of me to text me a comforting lie."
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"I..." If there's one thing to have Jack stumbling over his words, it's an angry lover. And not just any angry lover, but his angry lover, angry at him. "I'm sorry. I didn't think that... I mean, we were only having a drink." He shakes his head, spreading his hands in front of him in a defensive and placating gesture. "I didn't think that you...would care." Which sounds pretty horrible, in retrospect. Oh well.
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Ianto & Jack, two days later
Eventually, there's nothing else to resolve by thinking on it alone. His head feels clearer in some ways than it has in months. It's too easy to get caught up in Jack's presence and ignore the things they never talk about, the things Ianto is afraid Jack doesn't want to talk about. But they have to if they want to keep going.
So Ianto tracks down Jack in the shuttle bay, the closest thing to a roof the Tranquility has.
"Can we talk?" he asks softly, hoping that the time away hasn't just convinced Jack to be angry at him.
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He thinks about being petty, about lashing out about whether Ianto's sure he wants to talk, considering how avidly he'd been avoiding him up until this point, but he holds his tongue. He wants to make up with he other man. He needs Ianto to forgive him, selfishly. So instead he nods, his eyes guarded as he responds, "...yeah. Sure." He motions to the spot beside him, although he has no idea whether Ianto means here or what.
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"I'm sorry for lashing out at you. I said things I didn't mean, things I know aren't true. I said them because I was hurting and I overreacted. It took me some time to figure out why I overreacted." There had been every reason for Ianto to be angry at Jack's thoughtlessness, but it had been only that — thoughtlessness. Ianto can see that now. But accusing Jack of not caring, of being fickle in his feelings... that had been out of line, and Ianto regrets it with every ounce of his being.
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He looks down at their hands and shakes his head at Ianto's words. He's not sure that he deserves the apology either. He was thoughtless, and it hurt someone he cares about deeply. Someone he loves. He can offer all the excuses in the world but that fact still stands. "...I didn't mean to hurt you," he says, after a moment of silence. "I would never mean to hurt you." He takes in a breath before letting it out slowly. "Guess you could say I just have a natural talent for it, even so."
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He takes a steadying breath, knowing all this needs to be said, but hesitant to say it. The last time he uttered the word couple and tried, in his clumsy way, to ask for definition, he'd been shut down so quickly it had left him reeling. That had been two years ago, and he hadn't dared to bring it up since.
"We've never defined anything. Not our limits or our expectations. We take cues and dance around it, but we've never... we've never talked about it, Jack. I take things on faith, because you've never pushed me, never asked for anything I wasn't willing to give, but that also means I've never told you what I want. Never asked you what you want. I assume we're probably on the same page, and then... When those assumptions are challenged, it spooks me."
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"I would never ask for much," he says, because even the idea of it is making him uncomfortable, but he'll talk. He owes Ianto this much, especially now. "Certainly not anything you can't give. And I..." Damn, this isn't easy though. "Anything I have to give is yours." It doesn't answer Ianto's questions. But it's at least a step in the right direction at least, he knows.
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"It's the same for me though, Jack. I want to give you anything, everything you need. Everything you want. But I can't if I don't know what that is. I think I've guessed, but then something happens like two days ago, and I wonder if I've gotten everything wrong. I see you with someone else when you're supposed to be with me, and instead of just being upset with you for being inconsiderate, I turn into a crazy green-eyed monster."
He swallows and braces himself, turning to look at Jack.
"Do you realize we never even talked about exclusivity? We just sort of fell into it. And I know you think labels are an outdated concept, but I need the definition. I don't really know how to function in a relationship without it."
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"We never talk about a lot of things," Jack points out, before his gaze falls. He can't look Ianto in the eyes while he continues. "Maybe that's my fault." No, it probably is his fault. He pauses for a long moment, his eyes fixed on their hands, since he can't quite bring himself to look at those eyes again just yet. "...I'm not good at this, Ianto. But I'm willing to try. For you. So." He takes in another deep breath. "Whatever. Whatever you need. Definition, boundaries. I. I can try."
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